It’s December 22, 2016 7:32pm and I am haphazardly watching the Eagles vs. Giants; which should be a big deal to me considering that I am a hardcore Dallas Cowboys fan and if the Giants lose we (meaning me and the Cowboys) clinch the division. Or possibly my mind should be focused on the fact that I am 3 days away from Christmas and all I have under the tree are 5 Christmas cards my sister sent in the mail. LOL! Yes you heard that right I am 3 days away from Christms and I have done no shopping at all.
However; neither of which are any of my concern. My mind is completely occupied by the reawakening of the BPOZ! Podcast. Yes folks you heard it the BPOZ! Podcast is back at the beginning of the year but I am scared and I don’t know why.
- Maybe I am scared because I really believe that this could work!
- Maybe I am scared because I think it won’t work!
- Maybe I am scared because I think people don’t want to listen to me!
- Maybe I am scared simply because I have no clue what is going to happen!
My fear of failing at broadcasting my thoughts, views, and education (an education I have spent thousands of dollars on) across the airwaves for others to pick, prod, and judge has made me a bit obsessive. Since I made this decision (way before the wife agreed) to restart this podcast I am pretty sure I’ve stuffed my eardrums with 100’s of hours of podcasts; riding in the car, observing my son competing in sports, washing dishes (which I have probably done twice), watching TV, hell even while dropping a deuce (duece = poop!). I have been garbling up all kinds of podcasts from the likes of Tim Ferris and Ted Talks to Bill Burr and T.D. Jakes; see I told you all kinds! I honestly feel ready! I even purchased all of my equipment from Amazon to include a green screen because we will also be posting our podcasts on YouTube so you can match the voice with a face; spoiler alert I am the hazel eyed drop dead gorgeous male talent next to the beautiful woman who puts my looks to shame! Yet I am still scared.
This fear forces me to analyze me and my position. I am quite sure that I am not the only person who feels fear but I may be the only person who feels that it is a productive feeling; as long as you can be reasonable in your processing, meaning fear can’t produce an action or keep you from producing an action for that matter.
There is a scripture that comes to mind 2 Timothy 1:7 For God hath not given you the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. Regardless of your belief system or lack there of, understand that fear is natural but confiding in it is a choice! I can literally choose if I want to be afraid of launching my podcast because I am afraid of both success and failure; or I can chose to acknowledge that I am afraid but still push through simply because my belief that my information that I possess in my soul is valuable regardless of what you all think!
And with that being said I am proud to present to you the new and improved BPOZ! Podcast; even though I am afraid of what you all think about my product. But F it!